Something or someone is holding you back and you need to deal with this today if you want a new beginning.
Something in your life is not good for you and could be dragging you down or holding you back. You need to face up to this today and get tough with this. Whatever, or whoever this is, it's time to be honest about it and put yourself first. You have to leave this behind if you want to move forward. You can make your own new beginning, but only if you are prepared to shed the dead wood.