It's time today to make that decision, you cant put it off any longer, so be strong and confident.
Putting off making a solid decision and changing your mind a lot is going to give you trouble in the long run and you are only putting off the inevitable anyway. Others are going to lose confidence in your abilities if you do not step up to the plate, so be strong today and nail your colours to the mast. Be definite and certain in the decisions you make and find motivation.